i feel so down
like i'm falling down a never ending hole i understand how alice feels
more then anything
you're falling
and you don't see an end in sight
and when you finally land
nothing is like it was before
your lost in a world not your own
and more then anything you wish to return home
but you can't
you must survive in this world
where nothing is your own
and nobody understands you
or vice versa
how can you begin to start
start to live
to breath
to understand
you must
must go on
because if you stop
and let everything catch up with you
you WILL drop it
and it will crash around you
and everything you held onto will go
leave
float away
your love
your life, family,friends
all gone,
but don't give up hope
there is always a silver lining
right
?

there must be
because if there wasn't
i still wouldn't be here
i would be gone
back up that hole
where everything is normal
the same
nothing changed
where everything that i feared
isn't there
hasn't caught up with me
and i can pretend it isn't there
it didnt happen
and i can wish
dream
hope
that my life isn't scary
stressed
a mess
and tiring
that its hopeless
becuase i see
i see that silver lining
its there
just for me
and i intend to reach for it